Servant's heart

Something's on my mind. I tend to think too much at times, at the wrong time. Somehow, my brain does not work well during the day, and it is when I am supposed to be deep asleep at night that my brain decides to work.

Or, to receive His voice.

Many of you know, lately I have been consumed with this new-found passion of mine: photography. I feel it's almost like the hidden monster in me has been awoken, ready to take on the world.

I often wonder, what is that one special talent, gift that God has bestowed upon me when He formed me, and I could never come up with an answer that I was satisfied with. Singing? Not really, even though I love to sing, and I was in choir for two years in high school. Drawing? No way. The ability to be athletic? That's a joke. Scrapbooking? Not a chance. Cooking, baking? Only when I have to, and I don't really enjoy either.

Not until I held a camera in my hands a few months ago, I realized. I found my gift.

Deep down, I know that I still have a long way to go. But I also know, that I have come far in such a short period of time. My passion to learn about photography comes in waves, each set stronger than the last. Only if I have every minute of the day to devote myself wholly to this, but I don't.

I also remind myself, that this gift comes from above. It comes from the One Who loves me, Who made me, and it is He Who has provided me. If it were not for Him, I would not be where I am. Jesus came to serve, and so should I. He came to this world humble and meek, and so I should be. Although, at times, it is difficult to tame that pride. I am not perfect, and no where near to be. Everyday I struggle to swallow down that pride and try so hard to build up others, instead of myself. I cannot do it by my own will power; I can only do it through His strength.

Looking ahead, I am excited to say, that I will have a few photography sessions coming up: For my new niece's portrait, and for my brother in law's engagement session, and finally, the big wedding coming up in August. I say that not to promote myself. I say that to credit everything to my Lord Jesus. It is He who gifted me, it is He who is giving me these opportunities, so I may serve Him in ways that I may not understand.

This morning, I am once again reminded through His gentle voice,

"For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve others and to give his life as a ransom for many." ~Mark 10:45~